Where My Demons Hide

Don’t get too close, it’s dark inside, it’s where my demons hide.

-Imagine Dragons 

Demons

You’re a beautiful soul… A stunning heart with eyes full of darkness. And I can’t help but feel you live out the words of this song over and over again… No one is allowed too close, because they might see what’s going on, they might see the demons inside. And I've gotta be honest with you – I see them. You thought you stopped me from seeing. You thought you were careful enough with your words and life descriptions, but I saw what was inside…

And nothing about it makes me want to run… If any running is going to be done, it is going to be beside you into the very arms of Light. Darling, we all have our secrets. We all have the darkness that we try to push back each day, hold it at bay for just a little longer. We all have places where the demons in us hide, where the ugly faces of scars and addictions and bruises rest.

So why do we all fear letting someone get too close? Why is it such an unbearable thought that someone might see what’s really going on?

If I have learned anything, it’s that darkness hates being exposed to Light. Demons don’t want to be seen for what they really are. And letting someone else in – is painful for that very reason. But the thing with the darkness is – though it hates being exposed to light, true Light dispels it. Light breaks through it, and Love – Love completely covers it.

Baby, I know it’s dark inside. I know you don’t want anyone to see. I know you’re living in a bubble of the same too-fast world, kidding yourself into thinking they all know you but you’ve gotta know that ‘darkness cannot drive out darkness – only light can do that.’

You don’t have to be all pretty. You don’t have to have all the demons gone, all the darkness broken before you let people in. You don’t have to live in fear of someone getting too close, seeing too much. You’re beautiful… Not because everything is perfect – but because you’re trying… Because you haven’t stopped being hungry for more than this. You haven’t stopped hoping, wishing, and maybe even praying for something beyond just the now, beyond just the darkness, beyond all you’ve ever known.

You’re allowed to get close now…. You’re allowed to let people see - little by little if that’s what it takes – that there is darkness, and there are demons. But they don’t define you anymore. You’re allowed to let your life be exposed to the light, because darling, that’s everything you deserve.

You deserve Light and Hope and dreams come true. You deserve Love that covers and conquers, Love that is faithful – that fights and stays. You deserve every kind of beautiful redemption, redemption that takes all the ugly scars you thought were hidden, the bloodied gaping wounds that you thought were healed in your strength and makes them into something more beautiful than you could ever have imagined.

You’re not forgotten. You’re not unseen.