You didn't choose me, remember; I chose you.
- John 15: 16
This choice comes at a cost, all other things are lost, no other love could mean so much to me...
I choose Jesus - the One Who first chose me.
I'm kind of in love with these words... With this thought, that this is what Christmas truly is. It's You choosing me. It's You seeing my broken heart and broken life. It's You seeing my pain and guilt long before it ever happened and choosing to come and fix it. And I know sometimes I wonder at this choice I've made for You - especially when the cost seems so high... But You chose me first. And really, You paid the highest cost there is. The shame, the difficulty of denying Your pride and earthly desires, the absolute horror of feeling separated from God in Your darkest hour - it's a cost I know nothing about. And yet, You paid it. You saw me in my sin and my pain and felt compassion for me. You ran to embrace me.
Jesus, I'll keep choosing You.
I dont even know what this choice looks like in the future, what I might have to walk away from in order to hold tight to You, but this Love means everything to me. I cant imagine trying to survive again without You. I cant imagine trying to breathe with no knowledge or belief in You. I choose You, Jesus, because I know You first chose me.
Friends, I pray you have a very merry and blessed Christmas. I pray that this Christmas you would know without a doubt that you are loved and chosen by Jesus, and that maybe, you would also choose Him. If you are lonely or hurting this Christmas, please know that I am thinking of you and praying for you, wishing I could be there with you drinking hot chocolate and laughing until we cry. No matter how it feels, you are not alone, baby. Please remember that Christmas is actually the reminder that you. are. not. alone.
I love you.